Minim Calibre ([info]minim_calibre) wrote,
2005-08-19 02:05:00
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[Fic] (another comment ficlet) BtVS: "Color #156 - Pacificocean" Gen.

[info]itsabigrock gave a prompt earlier, looking for fic around a single line.

So I'm sharing my effort with the class. Short. Gen.

Title: Color #156 - Pacificocean
Fandom: BtVS
Spoilers: AU after 4x16, Who Are You

"This is the job, without the diaries I am the nothing you made me."

After the first month, she writes it all in code. The paper and crayons are supposed to be part of her "cure", but they'll take them away if they think she's using them to cling to a delusion, and she can't let that happen. They keep her sane. Not the way that's intended, but then, she's not crazy the way they think she is.

The code isn't one they'll ever be able to break--after all, it's not like Watchers spend a lot of time hanging in Macy's, and even if they did, it doesn't mean anything to someone who's not her. It's a just a list of words: "Real Vellum"; "Black Honey"; "A Different Grape". Memories of who she is, Color Me Beautiful style.

Cordelia would approve.

At night she shudders in skin that's not hers and waits for the medication to wear off and the dreams to go away. It never does, and they never do.

They tell her she's improving, that Faith is improving. She wonders if that's true, if, back in Sunnydale, Faith is making her bed and flossing her teeth and living her life just like she would. There's blood on her palms when she unclenches her fists. If they see it, they'll call that backsliding, and up the dosage.

Buffy drags her sleeves down as far as they'll go, picks up the Cornflower Blue, and writes:

Sebastian Potion No. 9

Alfresco Brick

Hydrience Beach Beige

and thinks again of home.

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[info]raskazzptitsa

August 19 2005, 09:32:20 UTC 6 years ago

Oh, awesome and scary as hell.

[info]minim_calibre

August 24 2005, 06:58:55 UTC 6 years ago

MWAH!

Thank you!

[info]monanotlisa

August 19 2005, 09:35:43 UTC 6 years ago

Whoa. Dark and disturbing, but just so *right*.

I'm so happy you're writing again (or at least sharing what you write. *g*)

[info]minim_calibre

August 24 2005, 07:00:00 UTC 6 years ago

Writing again! Slowly, occasionally painfully, and with many interruptions from Lily.

I managed *maybe* a paragraph while I was pregnant. It was like a giant off switch was thrown by my uterus.

[info]monanotlisa

August 24 2005, 09:45:43 UTC 6 years ago

Well, all your creative juices were sort of directed elsewhere.

::ducks rotten tomatoes::

[info]minnow1212

August 19 2005, 12:39:16 UTC 6 years ago

Oh wow. (I first wrote that "Oh" as "ow" and that applies too.)

[info]minim_calibre

August 24 2005, 07:00:30 UTC 6 years ago

Thank you! I feel like I'm slowly crawling back on the horse.

[info]fox1013

August 19 2005, 14:10:56 UTC 6 years ago

Eeee. That's awesome.

[info]minim_calibre

August 24 2005, 07:00:49 UTC 6 years ago

Thank you, dear Foxlet!

Your icon makes me giggle.

[info]raveninthewind

August 19 2005, 22:23:31 UTC 6 years ago

Oh, chilling.

*shivers*

[info]minim_calibre

August 24 2005, 07:01:03 UTC 6 years ago

Thank you!

[info]frimfram

August 20 2005, 17:00:12 UTC 6 years ago

Hi, I saw this listed at the [info]su_herald, and it was wonderful. I had to read it twice, having mixed up 'Who Are You' and 'Normal Again' in my head and thoroughly confused myself, but once I got a clue it made me shiver. Very clever, lovely, nasty stuff.

[info]minim_calibre

August 24 2005, 07:01:47 UTC 6 years ago

Thank you! Sorry for the response delay--I have a clingy four month old, which means my hands go AWOL for long stretches of time.

[info]seraphcelene

August 20 2005, 22:59:27 UTC 6 years ago

They keep her sane. Not the way that's intended, but then, she's not crazy the way they think she is.

quite chilling. love the details. awesome.

[info]minim_calibre

August 24 2005, 07:02:53 UTC 6 years ago

I think the reorg I did on my makeup case probably contributed to this story (now I have just ONE tackle box in rotation).

Thank you.

[info]viciouswishes

August 21 2005, 03:48:02 UTC 6 years ago

Creepy and nicely done.

[info]minim_calibre

August 24 2005, 07:03:28 UTC 6 years ago

Thank you!

Man, it feels nice to be writing again.

[info]grimorie

August 23 2005, 08:20:48 UTC 6 years ago

chilling. and this *could* have happened.

[info]minim_calibre

August 24 2005, 07:04:09 UTC 6 years ago

Thank you!

I love your icon, BTW.

[info]kita0610

September 6 2005, 01:04:27 UTC 6 years ago

This is great. I dunno how I missed it the first time around. Yummy chilly.

I assume you've read the 12th Sister, yeah? Similarly creepy take on the body switch.

[info]cadence_k

September 6 2005, 02:07:21 UTC 6 years ago

I found this through [info]viciouswishes :)

This was very well done! The creep factor is excellent and really makes you think what might have happened if they hadn't switched back. I'm very glad I found this!
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